this feeling is not new to me. it happened a coupled of time when i was in school. but i don't give a damn for every bad that happened before. especially during my lower-secondary school. yes, because by that time I was young, strong, and stupid. more muscle-usage than rationalize. but for what happened nowadays, is may be slightly different.

frankly i would say, it's not a big deal actually, for being excluded. that's how things work around here. that is what happened when you're human. u know, everybody said "life is like a wheel, sometimes ur up, sometimes ur down..". and that's true, i agree about that, but with some additions.
"life is like a wheel, sometimes ur up, and sometimes ur down.
yet u still at least have to try,
to ensure that ur always on top of the wheel,
for that u'll never cry.."
but what if i'm always on top? then it'll make the wheel stop, right?if it's stop, its mean that there's no life anymore!so it doesn't make sense..
so i must a least try to be on top, by slowing my wheel when i'm up, and dashed when i'm down.that's how it's work.
i'm hoping that for what has just happen, is a part of the process to make me become A Man, and teach me something from it. something which will avoid me from making the same mistake every time my wheel is going to down.



